I want to not to want to fit in to fit in. Capiche?

Hi bloggity,

Like many of my other blog posts, I'm here yet again, in the summer holidays where I actually have time to myself to do other things than the usual teachery things. (Yes, that's the technical term!).

I feel this is my online diary that I dabble into now and again. I've always liked the idea of a diary or a journal as it is called as you enter adulthood. I feel like this is a little place in the corner of the internet that I can, be me. Which in itself seems odd, because, well, I am me outside of this blog. But I guess what I'm truly trying to get at is that here on my blog I can fangirl and geek out about my favourite things where in the "real world" I can only geek out to an extent. Which again, I am contradicting myself as now it sounds like I hide parts of me in order to fit in and I am very much a person who isn't too fussed about fitting into the "bigger crowd" as long as I have my close friends with me. And if you're not confused by now, congratulations. 

 

I guess it's almost animal instinct that we all want to fit in; that deep down we have that desire to be accepted and be part of something; something bigger than we know. Some people are just more explicit at wanting to fit in than others. There's a spectrum of "wanting to fit in".

Some people follow the latest trends, have the latest fashion, tastes and styles; pop culture if you will. Some people make a point to explicitly not follow mass interest and relevance in these same categories. And then there are people whom sit in the middle, they enjoy the latest watchamacallits, dabble in a few, watch others dabble in others, but also enjoy other less talked about things. But what it boils down to is that whatever category you may or may not fit in, it's okay. And I think that is the point that is sometimes quite hard to swallow.

The fear of not being part of something, the security of being protected by a group of people, is what drives us as people. It's a worldwide, unspoken fact, you are stronger if you are more than one. And yes, this is 100% true. I have no doubt about it. Pick up one uncooked spaghetti and snap it in half. Easy. Pick up the whole packet of uncooked spaghetti and snap it in half. Not so easy. But the point is, being part of a crowd is not always the best as comfortable as it may feel.

There are tonnes and tonnes of stories that explain how being different is actually the best way to be. From Alan Turing to Albus Severus Potter to everyone in between, they all did what they did because they were different. They changed their worlds because they were different. As much as they may have wanted to fit in, what made them different, made them who they are.

All in all, I'm going round in sqovals. It's not important what you like, how you like it and why you like it. But what is important, is that it's okay to like it, whether you want to not to want to fit in to fit in.

Being different is powerful.

Keep smiling,

Skeena xxx

#draw642smiles: 3) Light Bulb

So I bought this book a couple of months ago called, 642 things to draw.

And my aim is to do exactly that, draw 642 things. I upload all my drawings as soon as their done onto my Instagram @SkeenaSmiles, however, I too will upload them here weekly for your viewing pleasure.

I present to you drawing 2,
The Light Bulb.

#draw642smiles: 2) An Ironing Bored

So I bought this book a couple of months ago called, 642 things to draw.

And my aim is to do exactly that, draw 642 things. I upload all my drawings as soon as their done onto my Instagram @SkeenaSmiles, however, I too will upload them here weekly for your viewing pleasure.

I present to you drawing 2,

An Ironing Bored.

#draw642smiles: 1) An Anchor

So I bought this book a couple of months ago:

And my aim is to do exactly that, draw 642 things. I upload all my drawings as soon as their done onto my Instagram @SkeenaSmiles, however, I too will upload them here weekly for your viewing pleasure.

I present to you drawing 1,

The Anchor.

Back Down Media Lane

My interest in TV production was born with the help of Doctor Who. The regenerated show that made this once skeptical teen believe in the magic of TV once again (Thank you Russel T Davies!).

After the Saturday evening, family occasion of watching the latest Doctor Who episode, everyone would leave their posts but I, as my eyes were glued to the screen soaking in Doctor Who Confidential.

 

I was mesmerised by the how's of Doctor Who. How did they make that do that? How did this look like that? How did that look so real? And Doctor Who Confidential answered. And bit by bit, it let me peep into a small window into TV production.

Since then, I have always found it so interesting; the ins and outs of TV production. I would watch any behind the scenes action available; be it bloopers, interviews, commentaries, documentaries. I would watch all the things with no leaf left unturned and absorb any TV production snippets that greeted my eyes and ears.

So fast forward to a few years later that was my A-levels, and hey presto, I picked Media Studies and man did I love it! It was a subject where my organising obsession, wild imagination, bubbling creativity was fed. HECK, you know its something you love when even revising for the exams was never a chore!(which, fun fact, my exam resit for my first year Media Studies A-level involved watching a scene from Merlin, Series 1, Episode 1 and analysing it. Imagine watching a TV drama for your exam!)

So the pinnacle of this post is that I recently stumbled over my A-level media studies coursework and because it was the height of technology, it was submitted via blog. And well, if like Nathan Sykes you've put 1 + 1 together correctly, I have these blogs to share with you today.

I'm very proud of these blogs, even now several years later. And if anything, it's a little insight into the mind of the 16-18 year old Skeena.

Preface

1. 16-17 year old Skeena researched, produced and blogged an opening scene of a horror movie called Identical.
   
2. 17-18 year old Skeena researched, produced and blogged a music video by Frankie and the Sound Within - 13teen (which is actually Pink's - Conversations with my Thirteen Year Old Self).

If anything, these blogs are a little sentimental reminder of how much I'd love to work in TV production.

Enjoy,

Skeena xx

Lull.

Hello lull; the temporary interval of lack of activity.

There's a lot of things that inhabit my lull. Like the lack of my blog posts for one. Or maybe the lack of screenwriting, a writers block if you prefer, for two. Or how about, the lack of spontaneity, adventure and risk. These are a few of my least favourite things.

I need to escape the lull.

Setting goals is probably a good start.

Goal 1: Escape the lull.

To be continued.  

Riveting, I know.

Skeena xx

Ridiculously Elaborate, Late Night, Nonsensical Spiel.

Hello you.

I dare not start this blog post with excuses of where my presence on this very blog has been, or for a better choice of words, hasn't been. Therefore, it shall start with neither sense or logic, which may I add, I am aware that those two words are synonyms of each other, and this post shall continue with neither logic or sense, she says as Dr.Seuss tips his hat.

How are you, kind reader?

I have no plan for this particular post, just like I didn't plan for that alliteration, but like the alliteration, the post here sits. For if there was a plan, I guess, it would be to just let the waterfall of words escape my fingertips as they tap dance their way around their keyboard stage. And yes, I am fully aware that that last line was cheesy yet poetic but I think Shakespeare is safe.

I missed this.

Signing out,
Skeena xx